Initially, I wanted to continue writing along my “long engagements” theme; then I read Jeff’s New Year’s post and wrestled with changing the tone to something a little lighter, which is why I haven’t written in a while. I don’t get writer’s block, I block myself from writing. I can’t say I’m gleaning from much to inspire me right now. But I did move… again. Since I graduated in 2010 I have moved 6 times. I am now living in the 7th place, the first of which I have to furnish. I was initially prepared to live alone, also for the first time, but God apparently felt like that wasn’t best so Joey moved in with me.
I find moving bearable, I like lifting things, setting things up, and I like getting rid of things. I don’t like buying things, especially things that I will keep for a long time, things that I hope put in a “home”. What I mean by “home” is the place I want to live with my imaginary wife, and family in a city where I’m committed to serving a church filled with people that I share the love of Jesus with. In moving 6 times, I have been part of now my 4th church in 2 ½ years. This has been more trying on my heart than moving living quarters. Why? Because as the psalmist says I find myself “planted in the house of God.” To be uprooted from that or hurt in the midst of it is terrible, but it’s also very sweet to experience reconciliation and peace to move on and find it’s relatively easy to be planted elsewhere.
This verse in John 1:2-4 has tickled me recently: “My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.” Jesus says these things to comfort His disciples to prepare them for His death, resurrection, and ascension (aka His moving out).
Jesus was a pretty good carpenter.
Imagine: What if He is literally crafting a home for us? What if part of His intercession is building/creating His kingdom, preparing a home. When He’s finished and ready or maybe when He sees we are ready He will come back and take us to be with Him in simply constructed Kingdom where He is which will ultimately be back here, where we’ve always been.
What if in this season, my hope that renting and furnishing an apartment is Jesus’ answer to my prayer to prepare a home as a He prepares me for marriage and family and the desire to stay in one place for a longer season? And what if in the midst of all of it no matter how many times I move houses or churches no matter how long I wait for a bride and family of my own, He’s just been showing me that He has me with me where He is and doesn’t want me to be so uptight about where I am. That’s what I’m taking into this year, that though I feel like I haven’t been able to rest my head in one place and at times get what I want, I have the encouragement from Jesus who is convinced that I know where He is and that my movement is towards Him.
What are you moving out of/into this year? I’ll stick with this “Moving” thing for a little bit too.