The Reconstructed

I have not written in a long time. Maybe 2 1/2 months to some is not a long time. Maybe it’s not a long time and just feels like a long time. I guess it depends on what you’re waiting for or enduring. I think vitamin D and water are good for you. I think its odd that the sun evaporates water, that they almost feel at odds until you know that they are a part of some cycle. Whenever we refer to cycles in relationships we usually emphasize how bad it all is, instead of potentially looking at resilience. That maybe on the wheel of suffering we are actually enduring cyclically for something beautiful.

Maybe the cycle of suffering for love isn’t awful or ignoble. Maybe it never is meant to be so full suffering, but maybe the wounds we inflict on each other never needed to happen. Maybe the cycles are bad because we refuse to change. Maybe we could be hospitable and gentle today, in this very moment, in this very second, maybe we could let a love thought consume our mind for our enemies even. Or the thing that evaporates us, maybe we could work it all out with our opposite.

The sun and the sea.

Maybe the heat and the hurt and the dryness and the falling upwards when we don’t know if we will land on our feet or our head is all so that we will then also be poured out to nourish and heal and quench the thirst of the dehydrated, the ones thirty for the righteous things.

Righteousness, justice are the foundation of His throne. I don’t know what justice is anymore. I know it is something different than judgment and I know that it makes room for mercy, and I know it considers the weight of wrongs and the effects of all the sin and how it has damaged humanity. And I know that was why we needed reconciliation, salvation, a sacrificial lamb, a suffering servant.

I think the sun and sea cycle, this appearance of something being lost or disappearing only to precipitate (to suddenly bring about) can be hopeful. It’s interesting the word precipitate when not talking about the rain is used to talk about causing a sudden event in a negative context, yet rain is so necessary in the way things work here now.

But the word precipitous which sounds very similar often carries a positive connotation when you have to do something quickly or suddenly to get something done. Sometimes quick thinking is necessary and good as opposed to the word impetuous which means the same thing as precipitous except usually carries a negative connotation.

Why ramble about any of this?

Because it is amazing how we conflate good with bad and bad with good. Scripture reminds us that it rains on the just and unjust alike which I suppose can also be a subtle inference that the rain produces good for the unjust and the just or it could likewise mean a bummer for the just and unjust if it cancels our plans. It’s amazing how quickly your plans can be cancelled, how quickly people can turn on you, it’s also amazing how slowly it can happen. It took maybe 3 years for Judas to betray Jesus. But there were subtle signs of his greed, that he was capable.

We are all capable, and seemingly with some it seems they are incapable of choosing to do the right thing. They find ways to continue to do the most hurtful thing, and they live as if they could just break the cycle everything will be settled without considering the brokenness they just unleashed on others. It’s not their brokenness so who cares. We need to break you to remind you that nothing is better than our cycle of abuse and hurt.

It doesn’t matter if the cycle is good or if the love is good if the soil is bad. If the soil is bad, the best seed the best plant, the best fruit can’t be produced. In other words with Me, I can’t grow where the soil is contaminated and those in it fail to address or recognize it. But maybe there is hope elsewhere to be planted where the sun and the sea will always work it out. The Son may see and work it out. I’ll kiss Him lest he become angry.